For reasons, I have been thinking a lot about apologies lately. Sometimes, apologies can be swift resolutions to situations, sincere or not. Other times, apologies are only the beginning of the resolution. These apologies are the most painful for both the apologizer and the apologizee. The apologizee because something horrible has occured at their expense. The apologizer, because they caused the horrible occurance and they wish they could undo it, but they can't. These apologies are often met with verbal forgiveness, but the real forgiveness comes over time as the person who apologizes proves they are truly apologetic. Until then, both sides of the apology are in this weird state where they both feel crappy about they who had to apologize. It's also strange how much sincerety hurts sometimes.
Anyway, I'm sorry to you. I probably will be for awhile. In a way, I guess I will be forever.
Thanks for your forgiveness.
I'll stop now.